Nature & Human (I)

"The scientist does not study the nature because it is useful to do so. He studies it because he takes pleasure in it & he takes pleasure in it because it is beautiful. If nature were not beautiful it would be not worth knowing, and life would not be worth living". Henry Poincare
But I've got something to say, what I'm going to say is not apart from nature but it's totaly different...
It's about natue but it's not beautiful...

Father Said… (II)

The wall is to protect Siavash, it’s too high as you can’t see. No one can enter –well done! – but – I can’t get out myself, I can’t see outside, I’m stuck, I’m in my own hand-made prison…there is no way out…

I also made a Siavash, no one can touch him, no one can destroy him, neither can I. Have I done it in the wrong way boss? (I used to call my father Boss).

Forgive me father, for I have sinned…

Father Said… (I)

I’ve remember my father always said it seems quite dull and stupid for life to go on in a common way, son! neither make something that you think you’re gonna destroy it in the future nor make something so strong that you CANNOT destroy, still strong enough that no one can destroy but you…
Forgive me Father, cuz I did it in the wrong way; I made two things that I can’t destroy but it seems I have to in some way…, it’s even hard to change…
I made a wall & I made a Siavash that even I myself can’t destroy…

Dreams fade away...

When I was a child, I had many dreams, many wishes…. I wanted to make the world mine; I wanted to conquer every part of world. I wanted to travel to moon. I wanted to be strong; strong enough to stay, strong enough to escape…

But as I grew up, my dreams become smaller, the most important and biggest dreams faded away first… .Mother told the brightest flame burns quickest, what I heart was true. I lost my first dream and understood that is not achievable that’s just a dream…. The more I grew up everyday the more I lost dreams and face reality instead…I felt like I become someone new with new born dreams, I didn't even remember my old dreams... but I’ve always asked myself is that me killing that little son’s dreams or I’m not doing this, reality does?

Originally posted on Tuesday November 14, 2006

First Entry

Not surprisingly, always exam period is when the most exciting and interesting ideas start popping up in your head. Making a web log was one of many ideas in my mind. I decided to write about myself, what I am facing and what I am doing & what is happening to me...
Changing where I live made a big change in me as well, a very drastic change that now, I can hardly believe who I am...but I remember who I was...
I decided to write not only in my own notebook but here, maybe if I forget one day at least there is someone who can remind me (hopefully). I decided to write not just to say something but also to say I see- feel- think- and reflect…

Originally posted on Sunday November 12, 2006