A Thing That Works Against Me

One thing works against me is how my brain works..
whenever I tried to make one right smart choice, I simply sucked, I fucked something up if not everything...
I tried to do it in the best way by using my brain, I tried to be smart using shortcuts
but...
I don't know why I sometimes try to be innovativeI might be better off to leave it to others & I just watch them or just do it as others do

Mistake

Sometimes we need to make mistake or do something in our own way which might be completely O.K. but other may call it mistake...
America was discovered by MISTAKE & no one ever blamed Christopher Columbus for making such a great mistake!!! who are you to criticize me for any kinna mistake which is not obviously greater that discovering America?
Columbus DID MAKE MISTAKE, and mistake is mistake after all but he's not yet being blamed what I do might only be wrong in your opinion & I'm being blamed...
what I'm saying is not that we have to forgive someone who makes mistake, I strongly believe when someone makes mistake he/she should pay for it. What I'm saying is what is the authority - not even who is authorized - to perceive something as right or wrong. Well, as long as perception is involved there is no absolute right or wrong. The bad point is there is no right or wrong at all. It's all what you perceive based on your knowledge, experience, belief, background & personality...
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In the praise of Q & Z & X

Among the English letters, letters Q, Z, X are being used less than the other letters.

This is not because of the nature of these three lovely letters rather because of the way words are created, in the other words the nature of human caused this disharmony. That doesn't mean these letters are useless because we don't use them. Neither it means they have less absolute value than the letter E which is used the most in English.

Well, X is being used in the word sex and X itself is symbol of sex and widely being used in sensual context which adds lots of credibility to X...

Sometimes I really feel sorry for Q and Z;
Z is demoted in British English since they use S instead in many cases such as: recognise, antagonise, organisation... but at least it's been promoted in Americanized English and being used more than British equivalent of the words.

But Q; I can't think of any reason to add credibility to Q, neither i can find a reason to justify why Q is being neglected.
I don't understand why it's being created, if you create it you have to look after it, but Q is left like a abandon dog since there are other letters which has similar sound & is being used instead of Q or there are some words like queer which is not being used enough to emphasize (cherishing Z- not emphasise) the value of Q.

They shouldn't create Q and use other words with similar sound instead of poor Q from the first day, then we wouldn't feel sorry for Q now...

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Siavash Alavian is also a Q-Lover

The Ordinary

ordinary is never boring... it's just what you think... me father have boned me mother more that 20 years, this I think is true for your parents as well. apparently no one ever complained about having sex, it's the lack of having sex which most of the people complain about. people have sex some for a long time like me parents and I haven't heard anything about how boring & ordinary it is, no matter how often they do it
if it's ordinary then why there is no objection about how boring it is? you clearly know what you are exactly going to do in every single moment and satisfaction heralds repetition which certainly exist and repetition heralds satisfaction which is not guaranteed...
then why repetition & ordinary causes dissatisfaction... then why you escape from anything which causes fatigue but sex why the ordinary is not ordinary & boring

Planning

I've always heard planning is the first important step in any movement.

" Every moment you spend planning, saves three or four in execution."
Crawford Greenwalt
President DuPont

Here it is, my plan for exams...
I'm always great at planning, but I always suck at execution...
There should be a plan to execute the plan, defenitaley realistic approach
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I'm gonna break it! as I promised, as I did once

"The bird rights its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. Who would be born must first destroy a world. The bird flies to God. That God's name is Abraxas."*
One day soon, I'm gonna forget you & You & YOU... I'm gonna break the egg, I'm gonna be born once again. I know I can't break it now, I'm stuck. That egg is the "past" & I'm stuck in it
That past is so sweet & I can't break that egg... But it will happen some day...I'm doing my best to break it, to forget it -as I promised... I'm far away from home- 11,783.82 Kilometers precisely- but I'm still in the egg. Didn't know that egg is this BIG! but I'm gonna break it even if it costs me leaving the biggest egg... I'm ready to pay the price Not that I'm complaining about what I have or what I'm doing now but I want more, MORE. You understand I WANT MORE

*Demian, Hermann Hesse